Not Today

WOW!!!  The full moon brings it all out!!!   if only it would resolve it all too!!  ugh!!
Two worlds colliding and I forgot my damn helmet!!!!

I need an outlet and this is it for now I guess.
I need for something to work out soon or I am going to implode!

Focusing on my health right now cause it's failing fast...
I need to be supported.... not reprimanded!
I need to be held.... not pushed away!!
I need to be talked "to" ... not talked "at"!

I can't leave the blinders on any longer..
I need to look forward, but to also see all that is around me as well.

This is my release valve for now....
I know I need to get it out before it eats me alive!
I can type it all out and seeing it in writing helps me to figure out what is in my head.

Maybe one day I will have my sounding board back.
Maybe I will have a shoulder to cry on.
Maybe I will be allowed to speak of or to others without feeling like I have to sneak around.


Maybe one day... but not today : (